ashamed.

God, how could you not be ashamed of me?

frustrated and discouraged.

interviewing

it just took me a 1.5 hours to do a patient history...

alma mater

my pathology lab professor, himself an M.D. Ph.D. in anatomical pathology, asked us to introduce ourselves by our name and where we went to school.

as soon as i said i went to "washington university in st. louis," he told the class how washu was a "great school - especially for pathology." then, he tells us that a doctor from washu, lauren ackerman, wrote one of the "gold standard textbooks of surgical pathology" in use today.

i don't know what he expects of me, but i don't think publishing a universally used textbook is anywhere in my future. i just hope i can differentiate between a kidney and a spleen...

thank you washu. thank you very much.

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first day of second year done...

one of my friends summed up my sentiments exactly - the feeling i get about finally starting second year is that i'm glad i'm not an MS1 anymore because i don't think i'd have the patience or will-power to do anatomy, physiology, cell bio, biochem, immuno and whatever else we had to do last year all over again.

God grant me the strength and diligence to work hard this year - not for grades but to learn essential skills to be the best doctor i can be for His Kingdom in the future.

"..tis grace hath brought me safe thus far and grace will lead me home."